Now when Muftiah flies... in her dreams... she no longer plummets back down to earth... the instant she realizes... that she is flying... but goes on soaring... towards the Heavens... singing Blissfully...: "Praise ALLAH"... and feeling as light... as a feather...!
Farlan has met the Angels... Who Are To Accompany Muftiah... To SUBUD Heaven... And They Have Reassured Him... That They Have Been Accompanying Souls To Heaven... For Many Thousands Of Years...
Farlan's extraordinary encounter with The Angels... happened... while he was sitting in a cafe... having breakfast... on the very same morning... that Muftiah's Jiwa... went to Farlan... to tell him... that it was not yet time for her... to leave earth...
And Farlan later told Muftiah... how her Jiwa... had been so large... that it had seemed to spread... over the whole city of San Francisco...!!
About two years ago... Muftiah became willful again... and woke up one morning... protesting to ALLAH that... really and truly... it should no longer be necessary... For Him To Keep Reminding Muftiah... To "Obey ALLAH"... every five minutes... of her waking hours...
After nine years... of Constant Daily Reminders - how could she possibly not "Obey ALLAH"... when she was not only... confined to her home... but now even bedridden... as well...!?
So ALLAH Decided To Teach His Willful Daughter... Yet Another Valuable... Painful Lesson...:
A few days later... Muftiah woke up with an overwhelming desire... to hear the voice... of her dear SUBUD Sister... Lilijana... whom she hadn't seen... or talked to... in two years...
So she obediently asked ALLAH Permission... to call her up... and Received a very wishy-washy...:
"All Right... But Better Not"...
Now wanting to talk to her so badly... she asked again... hoping that ALLAH'S Answer... Would Be A Clear "Yes"... but again... His Answer Was A "...Better Not..."
Now she became naughty... and with a toss of her head... said...:
"Well... I want to hear her voice... so I'm going to call her..."... and proceeded to dial her number in Soquel...
Well... needless to say... their telephone conversation... was a fiasco... with no real communication... between them... to speak of... and Muftiah lost a dear Sister... in the process...
"Oh please forgive your SUBUD sister... Muftiah... dearest Lilijana..."
After Muftiah put the receiver down... she felt very strange... foolish... and off-balance... knowing that she had been disobedient to ALLAH...
And as the day progressed... the bad Feeling about herself deepened... until she became filled with utter
self-loathing... and disgust at herself...!
To make matters worse... when Farlan came home that night... he was very sweet and tender... and exceptionally nice to Muftiah... insisting... that he stay close to her... and even Receiving... to sleep by her side... that night...!
By this time... Muftiah felt so full of self-hatred... that she could not bear... for Farlan to see her in this awful state... feeling very naked... and exposed... and lay beside him... wide awake... wanting to cringe... as far away from him... as she could...!
Then... when morning finally came... Farlan awoke early... and suddenly made to appear... very angry with his wife... although he felt no actual anger... turned on her... and brought up unhappy events... of their past... full of scornful criticism... and dislike...!
After about an hour of Farlan's nasty haranguing... Muftiah could take no more... and sobbing... rushed into the bathroom... locking herself in... and tremblng... sat down on the throne... to try to quieten herself...
After a little while... she heard a Voice... outside herself... Quietly Asking...:
"Do You Still Believe... That You No Longer Need To Be Reminded... To "Obey ALLAH"...?"
And as she recalled another occasion... when she heard a Voice... in her bathroom... the Angry... Scolding Voice of God... when she tried to kill herself... because she was so miserably unhappy... being married to unfaithful Rene... a flood of remorse... swept through Muftiah... and she fell to her knees... sobbing and wailing so hard... begging ALLAH'S Forgiveness... as never before... it seemed... that she burst the capillaries... on her face...!
(Allah Almighty God's Commanded 32-Page Open Letter of January 3, 1987... To All SUBUD Brothers and Sisters Throughout The SUBUD World - to be Continued... with Part XXVIX... Insha Allah... God Willing... Thursday 3/3/11...)
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